Stretched in a million directions…

Sometimes I wonder why everything just seems so out of control for me. It really doesn’t make sense. My daily life is completely calm and routine. But everything in my head is racing at a million miles an hour, and I cant seem to stop it. Its not easy to feel like your on the outside looking in at your old life. I want to BE in my old life, you know? I want to fall in love all over again. I want to go to my friends birthday parties. I want to share my birthday with everyone I love so dearly…

But I cant, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I don’t actually want to turn back the clock. I just want to finally go back to where I know I belong. Back into the arms of…. back to my friends… I want to belong somewhere again. I want to wake up and smile because there is Oregon rain on the window. I want to actually want to graduate, at my own school, with my friends. I really didn’t think all that was a big deal until I didn’t have it anymore.

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