I Feel Ridiculous!

Lately, my heart has been completely overflowing. When you really accept Christ’s love, he fills every little space you can possibly imagine, and then some.

One way he does that, a huge thing of desire in a woman, is romance.

He is pursuing our hearts, and he longs for that ridiculous puppy love stage, like in a romantic relationship with a man or woman. He definitely desires more than that, but isn’t puppy love where it usually starts?

I’ve found myself squealing like a tween over a guy I like and wouldn’t mind being in a relationship, just for God to whisper I’m my ear “Bekah, this is the beginning of how I want you to feel about me. I know every broken little piece of your heart. Let me divinely romance and love you. Let me bring you joy unparalleled to anything on this earth. Yes, you are my daughter, but you are also my bride.”

Even with God, I get the warm fuzzies and girlish excitedness. I know he’s probably watching me light up with joy, and laughing at my dorkiness too.

Warrior Princess

This has nothing to do with what I wanted to blog about today. Haha, oh God, you work in funny ways 🙂

I was reading another blog when a thought came to mind. This particular post was about stress. (Awesome man by the way! Read his blog!)

I was reading the part about stress vs pressure.

A brief lesson in physics shows us that when an external force is applied, it’s called pressure.  So, more accurately, what we should be saying is,“I’m feeling a lot of pressure”.

So then, what is stress?  Stress is defined as internal resistance to an external load.

“Thanks Luke. You’re a freaking genius. But why is that important?”

Because we need be reminded that stress is not the pressure we feel.  Stress is our response to the pressure we feel.  In other words, stress is not something that just happens to you.

– From Luke’s Blog Post

God gave me an interesting picture as I was reading this.

He showed me a princess.

Lets talk about the typical princess and what we think of when we think “Princess”:

  • needs saving (which is not always bad)
  • cant do much for herself
  • usually trapped (maybe actually by internal conflict with external pressure?)
  • generally very beautiful
  • over-all a helpless person, waiting for charming to save her

Hold on to that thought. Maybe imagine Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty, just totally helpless until help arrives.

There is another type of princess that God calls us to be. 


Lets look at some details about this type of princess:

  • Needs saving, but goes out from her hiding place or place of captivity and fights for what she needs.
  • Learns what she needs to know, finds what she needs to have, gives what she needs to give to complete the journey, defeat the evil enemy, etc..
  • Still very beautiful, but her beauty is more than a quiet spirit and a pretty face. Her beauty calls to us. We wish to have fierce passion, and an untamed heart! We come alive in her adventure.
  • KNOWS that she needs guidance (Just like we know we need God) and seeks it out, but is also willing to do for herself, to take the first step in faith on a journey that leads her straight into the unknown.
  • When there is no hope, she still finds some even when any other princess would sit and wait for charming, not hoping for anything except to be freed. Warrior Princess has bigger hope, and that drives her to do bigger and greater things!
  • NOT HELPLESS at all. Warrior Princess rather not be alone, without man, but she would survive. HER WORTH IS NOT IN PRINCE CHARMING, BUT IN WHAT SHE WAS MADE FOR. 

I don’t know about you, but I rather be the Warrior Princess.

If you happen to be a guy (which is awesome that you’re reading this! 10 awesome points to you, Sir!!!) think of yourself as a Warrior. A protector of what is good, a fighter in the battle of righteousness. You do not lay down and give up! You choose to stand up for the good in this world, and not give up and sit on the couch as the war wages outside!

I rather stand up and fight for what’s right than to lay down, play dead, and hope they enemy walks right past me. The only reason I’d be playing dead is to get the enemy closer and vulnerable so I can attack!

Listen to the longing of your heart. God does not call us to be passive in life. There are times where he asks us to rest, which is wonderful and beautiful and restoring. Dont deny yourself that rest and peace. However, dont pass up the opportunity to step into what we are called to do. We are called to fight for God’s glory! Defend the weak, rescue the enslaved, bring help and assistance to the needy, and hope to the hopeless.

My wish is to be a Warrior Princess. A mighty Daughter of The Lord, God. The hope of the world.

Busy, busy, busy!

Hello, dear friends!
I haven’t forgotten about you!
I have been pretty darn busy the last week, but hopefully there will be some more posts to come!

Things I might post about:
Aquarium adventures
A lovely bridal shower
Learning to be vulnerable and learning how to receive other’s vulnerability
Keeping God first in a romance (or possible romance!!!)
Praying for those you don’t really like or may have hurt you

Check back later!!!


A Victory!

I actually slept normalish hours last night! So happy! And I’m actually not super exhausted today!

On a side note, I’m feeling much better today! Maybe I’ll do some yoga later???

My Life in Instagram post to come later today!

God is so Good!

There’s No End To The Affection You Have For ME!


This post I wrote, oh man. God is doing crazy things in and through me. 🙂

This story has been shared with hundreds since it happened. God is doing something incredible in me for the glory of his Kingdom!

This joy cannot be taken from me! 🙂


I really dislike being sick. Its just really not fun.

I also really dislike being sick for 5 or 6 weeks and randomly starting to feel better and thinking you’re getting better once in a while just to totally get hammered with illness again a few days later.

I have been healed of everything that hindered me and kept me from taking care of myself, so its just really hard to wrap my.mind around being sick like this. I just want it to be over.

Over and over again I’ve cried out to God. I’m growing impatient waiting for his answer.

I don’t want to stay in bed anymore. I don’t want to be sleeping all day long only to wake and feel just as horrible.

I have been set free of so many things, but this illness is keeping me from action free and taking advantage of my freedom.

Daddy, I’m still waiting for you to show me what to do.

Adventures of Childcare

This morning, I babysat 4 kids for 4 hours on 3 hours of sleep and 2 cups of coffee.

“Bekah, what is wrong with you?”

Well, I love friends so I stayed out late at a friends house watching a movie, I love being healthy so I had to then work out after staying out later because I hadn’t yet, and I love serving others regardless of how much sleep I’ve had so I still showed up.

Today has been an adventure. I was very humbled when I had to ask for someone to come help me tame the kids. I don’t ever ask for help, even when I should.

God never misses a chance to show us something.

He taught me today that its not only ok to as others for help, its especially ok to ask HIM for help. In fact, he longs for us to just say “Daddy, I need your help.”

On a side note I got to spend a few minutes with I man I have a large amount of respect for, Aaron Strumpel. His music draws me deep into passionate moments worshiping God.


He just happened to be at the house where I was watching kids.

What a crazy day.